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[secret45]

Hey everybody,

My strong feelings of my fear of dying have gotten worse. It's not anxiety, but more of a sense. This sense has been accurate before.

I was walking down the street one day and was staring straight ahead when I got this same feeling. I decided to see if I could use it to sense when a black car would pass me. Some other cars did before I got a stronger feeling and predicted the next car to be black...and was right. The feeling got strong again as I heard another car approach me....and I was right again.

So today I tried the same experiment again, only this time when I heard a car approaching, something told me that it was red...and I was right yet again.


I'm thinking that if this feeling is right about the cars, it would be accurate about me dying young. Does anyone have a logical explanation because I'm freaked out.

-ally

[beentheredonethat]

I find your post very interesting.
I have had my own experiences with premonitions & ESP

I was scared out of my wits at how accurate I could be in predicting certain things.

I don't get freaked out as much anymore because I understand what premonition is & is not.

To address your concern about cars = dying .....it does not work like that.
If it did.....then you & I could predict the winning lottery numbers every time!

EVERYONE has the ability to use their sixth sense & "tune in" to the world & the past/present/future
But people with OCD often mix what they FEAR with what they KNOW

You are just experiencing another form of anxiety associated with OCD

DON'T WORRY
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[secret45]

Hey beentheredonethat

Thanks so much for your post. It really is scary when this feeling is so accurate so it's why I think it's also accurate about death.

When you say we have the ability to be in tune with the past, present and future, how can we be in tune with the future if it's unknown?

-ally

[beentheredonethat]

Hi Ally -

The answer to your question is not a simple one.

To even begin to explain things I would have to get into Physics & some peoples belief that the past present & future exist simultaneously.
Even Albert Einstein believed this & had a theory about it.......

None of it should be scary for you....although it is normal to be afraid of things we don't understand.

I know your struggle & I also know your need to be reassured that you are not "predicting" your death.

It might help you to think of it this way.

Lets say you DID know when you would die.......
Would you live your life any different than you do now?

My opinion is that if you REALLY believed 100% that you could predict the time of your death....then the fear would leave you & you would make the most out of the time you have. It would be a "done deal" so to speak & since there would be nothing you could do about it...you would accept it as fact & get on with things........

Or lets say that you knew 100% that you DID NOT know when you would
die........
It could be tomorrow or it could be in 70 years...........
Would you THEN live your life any different than you do now?
The majority of us do not know when we are going to die.
Even with that uncertainty....we have lives filled with plans for the future....hopes & dreams & serenity.
We live this way .....not knowing if tomorrow is our last day.


I think it is the struggle you have with yourself on deciding whether you KNOW .......or do NOT know that is the real issue here .
It is THERE ......in that uncertainty......that your problem lies.

OCD is a disorder of UNCERTAINTY
It exists in "LIMBO" & trys its best to get us to exist there too.

You have more control over this than you think you do........you are just afraid & that keeps you feeling powerless.

WORK ON GETTING RID OF THE FEAR........and that will GIVE YOU THE STRENGTH TO DISMISS THE OCD WAY OF THINKING .

Recovery lies ..not in getting answers to all of our questions
Recovery lies in not having to ask the questions in the first place

ACCEPT..ACCEPT ....ACCEPT.........
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[secret45]

Update

Hey everybody,

I wanted to give an update on this topic that I started a month an a half ago.

My therapists wanted me to write down every time I get the feeling and the result. Its still the same. For some reason I can predict car colours and not just when they pass me. I’ve also been able to predict more specific things (like the colour of next car that will turn left before I even see a car).

I guess that I am really in tune with some things.

Whether or not I’m in tune with my own health with be a mystery until it happens. Personally I still believe that it will happen because it’s the same feeling, but I am certain that I’m in tune with cars.I’m even in tune with the time on the clock right down to the second.

This is a type of ability that I think everybody has if they learn to use it.

On the other hand I feel like I’ve opened Pandora’s Box. I don’t think that I should have seen how accurate this feeling was with my death. If it is subconscious, then I already know that I’m going to live past a certain age. I don’t know how I know, just like I don’t know how I know to foresee the colours of the cars, but I’m trying to work past it.

-ally

[beentheredonethat]

Hi - I'm glad you feel comfortable enough to share your experience with all of us.
Like I posted before...I have also dealt with premonitions & "knowing" certain things.
My ocd made it hard to just accept the fact that I have certain extra-sensory ability.
Having OCD made me question the "why" & what-if" about it ...just like I have with just about everything at one time or another.
We are always a little bit fearful of the things we don't understand or do not have one concrete answer for.......
Having OCD makes that fact even more fearful at times & harder to "JUST ACCEPT"
Try to remember that it is not your ESP that is the problem in your life....it is your OCD way of thinking.
MANY people have ESP ...and they are not frightened or concerned about it.
Also..they don't worry that it means they can predict their own death or anything else . They just take things as they come...and live their lives.
I am hoping that in time....you will be able to incorporate this ability into your life & not let it RUN your life.
I understand & want you to be happy..hang in there
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